Sir, you are very fortunate that you had her with you in real life for such a long time.
Father and Mother, both are extremely important. Absence of one develops a vacuum that you have mentioned.
I lost my father when i was 6. mere laad pyar krne k din thay. aur koi uthane wala nahi tha.
I can exactly relate to the feeling that some one is gripping your heart. same happens with me. I have been extremely loved by my mother but still.....................................................................
and that too happened in a road accident because a truck coming from the opposite direction had one fused headlight. Who to blame????
same happened to behnoi of my one and only best friend. he was coming from shadman to johar town on a rainy afternoon ten days before this eid. he was sitting in the front with the driver. just before campus underpass, a mazda truck passed their car from the wrong side and tried to enter the underpass ignoring the height of the container. it collided with the precautionary board with such force that the board along with the iron bar on which such boards are mounted. the iron bar and the board fell on the car crushing the passenger side. our brother died on the spot. he has left 2 daughters. elder is 6 years old.
i cry every time i see both of them and that happens daily. reminds me of my age and the tough times we had to face.
i had read in the last Lahore GTG thread about you and everyone missing you. Now i know they were right in missing you there. May Allah shower his blessings upon you and your family.