Honestly, there are things and wishes that one longs for but the actual possession, brings you in a state of dream at times and either you come out of the dream when it is over with vivid memories or stay confused whether it is a reality or few moments which will pass away soon... THESE are the most rememberable moments of ones life.....
For me it was UMRA which I have performed twice (once with my wife and second time with my mother, wife and kids)... still have a strong urge to go there and I think my urge is much stronger now but I am keeping my desires numb for now till I have enough resources ... please pray for me to achieve this objective.