You my friend are writing a book without knowing the plot.
If I knew why i was transferred into Intensive Care i would have had absolutely no reason at all to ask why.
And you are talking about bravery , resposibility , limits ?
If you come here to laugh why do you discuss your depressing problems? Which have a depressing effect on the entire forum.
I hope you are not expired because this is a clear signal that you are not thinking properly.