Hey there. I'm a big fan of the band KMFDM, a german (I think) industrial techno outfit. One of my favourite tracks of theirs is "Megalomaniac" which contains the lyrics "nihilistic mystic, apostolic alcoholic, messianic manic...." which really stuck with the teenager me, who was full of angst and thought everything was unfair and pointless.
Since then (I'm 35 now), I've grown out of that phase, thank god, but I still kinda love the irony of the term "nihilistic mystic", hence my handle here on PW.
Totally not a nihilist, the term doesn't define me or any of my inclinations, and I totally know I've got a reason to be here, even if it isn't clear to me yet.
As for that bug on my screen, there it is again! MORTEIN KAHAAN HAI???
(p.s., thanks for the conversation!)