You can be harsh, I don't mind. Well, you're right I do act childish. I know I have to take a decision and I have to face the outcome.
I don't know if its my weakness, physiological issue or stupidity that I get stuck in situations for a very long period of time until I am jolted by an external force or influence. I get absorbed in the space of time unless I am harshly pushed to do make things right. May be its laziness or God knows what but even though I realize things but I still couldn't gather courage to make things right. And yes, I am far behind from people of my age. I do realize that.